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Life=Passion
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Elizabeth Taylors on the line with A&Us
Dann Dulin discussing her impatience with ignorance,
her exasperation with President Bush, attending the
sick, and basking in the white light
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"AIDS is my life. Ive retired from films, and
I dont want to do them anymore," Elizabeth Taylor
asserts firmly in her feminine yet commanding voice, igniting
the phone line from her Bel-Air home. As an aside, she adds
flippantly: "I did a couple of good films. Leave it at
that."
Moments earlier, waiting for her telephone call, I was worried.
How would I address her? Miss Taylor? Dame Elizabeth? I fretted
needlessly. After talking with her for a few moments, I had
my answer. Just call her Elizabeth. Shes charming, genuine,
and easy going, so much so that I feel as though I am chatting
with an old chum.
Elizabeth Taylorher name alone conjures up so many
images: Cleopatra, eight marriages, the Betty Ford Clinic
(sober for fourteen years), two Oscar wins, countless medical
crises, Debbie and Eddie, Eddie and Liz, A Place in the Sun,
White Diamonds, the Krupp diamond, humanitarian work, and
passionate AIDS activism. I recall when I was growing up in
the sixties and seventies, Elizabeth, along with Jacqueline
Kennedy, dominated the newsstands. She is one of the most
photographed people in the world. Indeed, her life certainly
reads like a Hollywood screenplay, though she gets highly
upset and is quite adamant when asked whom shed like
to see play the part of Elizabeth Taylor: "I dont
want a movie to be made of my life because nobody knows my
life!"
A major part of Taylors life has been in the oftentimes
bleak world of AIDS. She was the first celebrity to get involved
in the fight to bring public recognition and acknowledgement
of the health crisis, long before it was fashionable to do
so. Right at the beginning of our conversation, she sets me
straight on a few facts. Most people think it was the death
of her cherished friend, Rock Hudson, that inspired her. In
fact, months before Hudsons death, Elizabeth helped
to establish amfAR, along with Dr. Arnold Klein, Dr. Michael
Gottlieb (Hudsons M.D.), Dr. Mathilde Krim, David Geffen,
Bill Misenhimer, and others. "I first heard about AIDS
while reading the newspapers, then, hearing it on television
news," she says. "It was quick; just one sentence.
It grabbed me that people were being ignored and dying."
In 1985, AIDS Project Los Angeles (APLA) was one of the few
organizations that serviced the AIDS community, and they asked
her to chair a fundraiser. She and Chen Sam (her devoted publicist
for more than twenty-five years who died of cancer in 1995)
rented a tiny office and made calls. They got nothing but
"nos." "The people in this town didnt
give a damn! Frank Sinatra said, Im not getting involved
in this stigma. And he owed the homosexual community so much,"
she declares. "I knew what I was taking on but even after
all the people who hung up on me, I did not give up."
As soon as Hudson died (he willed $250,000 to amfAR), Hollywood
started paying attention. "That made me cynical about
Hollywood. What a sad lesson. Its a very sad comment
on this town," she whispers glumly.
Nevertheless, Elizabeth successfully staged the first major
AIDS fundraiser, Commitment To Life, which raised $1 million.
She continues her work with fundraising, which includes an
annual amfAR benefit called Cinema Against AIDS, which is
held in Cannes. This past year, Taylor herself paid $100,000
for an appearance by Dame Shirley Bassey to belt out the classic
Bond song, "Goldfinger." And on February 9th, Art
for AIDS II, a fundraiser to benefit AIDS Services Foundation
Orange County (ASF) and Laguna Art Museum (LAM), the brainchild
of Dr. Arnold Klein, will honor Elizabeth Taylor. Last year,
Art for AIDS I staged a tribute to Rock Hudson where Elizabeth
gave a heart-wrenching speech about her friend.
Because amfAR focuses primarily on research and Elizabeth
wanted more of a hands-on approach to help PWAs, she established
The Elizabeth Taylor AIDS Foundation (ETAF) in 1991, where
monies go directly to community-based organizations that distribute
lifes necessities to PWAs. The initial start-up for
ETAF came from the sale to the media of Elizabeth and Larry
Fortenskys wedding photographs, which were taken at
Michael Jacksons Neverland Ranch. She underwrites all
costs and so there is no overhead, and volunteers staff the
organization. "AmfARs overhead is getting too high
for my taste. Im not being critical, I guess they need
to pay the people that work there," reasons Elizabeth,
though shes still its main contributor. ETAF recipients
include Caring For Babies With AIDS, Los Angeles; Chinese
Academy of Social Sciences, Beijing, China; Empower, Bangkok,
Thailand; LIFE, Honolulu, Hawaii; and Mother Saradadevi Social
Service Society, Tamilnadu, India. How does she decide whom
to fund? "Bill Misenhimer [grants consultant, former
executive director of APLA and amfAR] researches all the requests.
We weed them out, and find out about their overhead. If their
overhead is exorbitant, I dont give them money because
I know its going into somebodys pocket. My foundation
is for the individual. I want the money to get to the sick
who cant get out of bed," she specifies.
Just then, a deafening leaf blower sirens past my window
and Elizabeths words become muffled. I ask her to repeat
what she has just said. She does.
The Foundation also distributes condoms as well as needles,
and Taylor is the single largest contributor to amfARs
work on needle exchange. "There are those who think it
encourages junkies. Its a matter of education,"
she explains. "Instead of passing a [possibly infected]
needle around you have a fresh, sterilized needle. This is
one of my pet peeves. A needle a junkies does not make; a
needle passed around, AIDS it does give."
AIDS touched her life most directly when Aileen Getty, the
former wife of her son, Christopher Wilding, revealed to Taylor
that she had AIDS. Though diagnosed in 1985, it was not made
public until 1991. Elizabeth and Aileen are very close, and
like Elizabeth, Aileen is an activist, and was an early supporter
of amfAR. "Aileen is magic. What a survivor. Shes
been in and out of hospitals so many times but she fights.
Aileen is a tiny woman yet she uses her courage, her brain,
and every power in herself. Her spirit is keeping her alive,"
she says with obvious pride. "For the people that have
HIV or AIDS, dont give in to it. Fight it with all your
brainpower because you cannot let it be bigger than you."
Taylors words echo through twenty years of a tireless
fight. How overwhelming it must be for her at times. "I
live AIDS. It has become my life," she states precisely
and sternly, annoyed by Americas complacency about HIV.
"We need to educate people! It should be taught in schools.
My god, the highest rate of HIV infection is between [ages]
thirteen to twenty-four. What is a thirteen-year-old doing
fucking around anyway?" She is angry, takes a short breath,
yet remains agitated. "HIV aside, dont they think
about getting pregnant? What do their parents teach them?
I would like to get all the parents together and give them
holy shit!" she brays heatedly, sounding more like shades
of her character Martha in the film, Whos Afraid of
Virginia Woolf. "Because its their responsibility,
not the governments."
And if Elizabeth could chat up these teens, what would she
say? "You can have sex if you use a condom," she
proclaims bluntly, then dons a whiny voice and sarcastically
mocks, "But it doesnt feel so good."
She changes her voice back and continues: "But my reply
to that is: Death feels even worse." She welcomes the
opportunity to receive an invite from schools to address "these
heterosexual teenagers. I dont believe in soft-pedaling.
I believe in telling it like it is, and giving statistics
for them to mulch on."
Elizabeth knows the human faces behind these statistics.
"Nobody knows I go. The press doesnt follow me.
When I did my perfume tour, in every city I would find a hospice.
Wed have a ball. Id go to their room or wed
sit in the kitchen and laugh. I would say, No one seems to
be listening to you. What can we do for you? What do you need
that you dont have? Ill never forget one answerSomebody
to put their arms around me. So every time that I went
to a hospice after that I hugged and kissed each patient because
they were being treated like lepers." She pauses a moment.
"There was an old building they turned into a hospice
in the Borghese Gardens in Rome where the la-de-da women used
to walk their poodles. These women complained about the hospice,
saying that it was ruining the Gardens by having this dreadful
contagious disease there that they couldnt walk their
dogs anymore. I mean, like it was airborne? They were so stupid,"
Elizabeth disdainfully ridicules. Thus, hospice residents
were barred from the Gardens. They could no longer walk around
there. Coming to the rescue, Elizabeth bought them gym equipment
so that they could exercise despite the insensitivity of their
neighbors.
"We have a map at amfAR that blackens out areas of the
world where AIDS has killed. If you could see how completely
out of control it is in Africa, Asia, and India. It is spreading
so rapidly. Its frightening. Even in America. People
think the cocktail is a cure. Thats why we need education,"
she screams. Elizabeths close friend, Nelson Mandela,
has even suggested that she not come to Africa because she
would be stoned to death. "A woman does not talk to men
about sex. Even if I were black, but to be white on top of
itno way!" blurts Elizabeth. Shes presently
concerned about the challenge of how to get the message across
to halt AIDS without talking about sex.
At this point, I truly need to go to the bathroom. I ask
Elizabeth, Do you want to hold on? "Sure. Sure,"
she politely responds. When I return, she asks, "Was
that the tap, or you peeing?" Caught by surprise and
slightly embarrassed, I reply, I dont know. Did you
hear me?! "It sounded like a waterfall," she exclaims
jovially. "No wonder you had to go pee!" We both
burst into laughter. This reminds her of an incident that
occurred while she and her then-husband, Senator John Warner,
were in a small plane over the state of Virginia during the
campaign. They made an emergency landing in an open field.
"I really had to go! There was no question about it.
I charged to the nearest house." When the woman answered
the door, her mouth gaped open and she allowed Elizabeth to
use the bathroom. "Ill never forget this,"
laughs Elizabeth. Neither will I.
Elizabeth has suffered the loss of many people that she loved,
all covered breathlessly by the world presshusband Mike
Todds death in a plane crash; the suicide of her personal
secretary, Roger Wall, after he learned that he was HIV-positive;
close buddies, Mongtomery Clift and Roddy McDowell. Over the
New Years holiday she lost yet another great friend.
"Hes one of the ones Im going to miss so
much," she tenderly cries as her voice cracks. I give
her a few minutes then ask, How do you deal with the grief?
"Im a very spiritual person. I dont believe
in organized religion anymore but I believe in God."
She pronounces it "Gawd," and for an instant, Im
pulled back in time to my parochial school in Ohio where Sister
Agnes Clare would also pronounce it that way. "Ive
come to the conclusion that everything happens for a reason.
I know the times that Ive almost died, the first thing
I thought of was, Not poor me, but, What am I to learn from
this lesson?" she confides. "I used to pooh-pooh
it but I realize [now] that I am a damn strong and a damn
brave person. And I can get through anything. Its mind
over matter."
Does she have a take on the afterlife? "I believe that
the soul does not die. I have a little dog, Sugar, and I know
she has a soul. We communicate and she understands every word
Im saying to her. Ive been pronounced dead four
times. Ive read my own obituary, and they were the best
reviews Ive ever had!" jokes a dramatic Elizabeth.
After the quick laugh, she continues in a serious tone: "I
went to that tunnel, saw the white light, and Mike [Todd].
I said, Oh Mike, youre where I want to be. And he said,
No, Baby. You have to turn around and go back because
there is something very important for you to do. You cannot
give up now. It was Mikes strength and love that
brought me back." Her near-death experience occurred
back in the fifties, long before she or anyone else for that
matter were aware of, much less spoke of such things. Taylor
never revealed it because she felt it was "Looney Tunes."
Elizabeth also thinks President Bush is a bit of a Looney
Tune, as she has been quoted saying, "I dont think
President Bush is doing anything at all about AIDS. In fact,
Im not sure he even knows how to spell AIDS."
We giggle when Elizabeth assures me that she did indeed make
this comment. However, Taylor still has hope for Bush. "I
know his best friend, which doesnt mean hes like
Bushthey couldnt be more opposite," she clarifies.
"Ive asked him to get some messages to Bush including
that I would like to be an Ambassador of AIDS for the country.
They have no one representing AIDS and I am the person to
do it." Elizabeth is excited and ready to take the plunge.
She made this request in early December while visiting Washington,
D.C., to be awarded the prestigious Kennedy Center Honors
for the significant contribution to American culture through
her craft.
Its hard to believe that this Dame will be seventy-one
in February, with four children, ten grandkids, and one great
grandchild. Shes as glamorous and headstrong today as
she was in her legendary studio days. This past fall, Simon
& Schuster published Elizabeth Taylor: My Love Affair
with Jewelry, and The House of Taylor recently released a
new perfume, Forever Elizabeth. A childrens book has
been reissued that Elizabeth wrote and illustrated when she
was fourteen, Elizabeth Taylor: Nibbles and Me. Thank heaven
for this classy live wire. What are her thoughts about getting
older? "I think you grow older only if you allow yourself
to grow older. Life is my true passion, and my work for AIDS
keeps me here. Im fed up with the ignorance, and I will
not stop until theres a cure." Before we hang up,
we wish each other Happy New Year and she gently adds, "Maybe
this will be the year for a cure, huh?" Hope so, Elizabeth.
Dann Dulin interviewed Tweet for the December 2002 issue.
Taylor Made
Had you not been an actress, what other profession would
have interested you?
Ballerina.
Where are your two Oscars located at this moment?
In a room I call my trophy room, which includes things from
all over the world.
Any secrets youd like to reveal about how you stay
so young?
My spirit.
I know you thoroughly enjoy traveling. What is your favorite
city?
I was born in London. I love London. Id like to go
home but they dont allow dogs in. I also love Paris,
and Rome.
Where is your favorite place to disappear to?
I have the most beautiful bedroom in the world. Its
octagonal. Its a huge room and its like being
in a tree house. I can see all the tops of the trees. Its
my security. Its where I recharge when I need E.T. time.
Ive read that you have a gift of ESP. Can you elaborate
on this?
The first time it happened to me was when I was nineteen
and Michael Wilding was thirty-nine. He was such a gentle
gentleman. We were going to Rome for the weekend and I turned
to him and said, Michael, we have to get off this plane now.
I said it with quite certain knowledge. The stewardesses helped
us get our bags. Since we were well-known they did it as a
great favor. They got us off, the plane took off, and it dissolved
in mid-air just outside Rome. Later, I asked Deepak Chopra,
How do you know the difference between a premonition and certain
knowledge? And he said thats it, its a certain
knowledge.
I saved Richards life and the people he was working
with, his secretary and his make-up man. We were staying at
President Titos house in Dubrovnik. And they were shooting
on all the real locales and it took two helicopters to get
them up to this battleground. I said, Get off the helicopter
and get into the other one. I said this to Richard Burton,
the man who took no shit from anyone. They got on the other
plane, and the helicopter plowed into the mountain, killing
everyone.
It has happened throughout my life, but it has slowed down
nowand nothing disastrous has happened.
Out of the many people you have met through the years,
is there one in particular who stands out, who impressed you
or inspired you the most?
Mike Todd and Richard Burton.
Who would you like to meet that you havent met yet?
No one.
Do you have an all-time favorite movie?
No, I dont.
What is your favorite Elizabeth Taylor movie?
Whos Afraid of Virginia Woolf. I became V.W. I captivated
this character through sheer observation, no acting lessons.
Never had one.
Who was the love of your life?
Ive had two great loves. Mike Todd and Richard Burton.
What would you like to be remembered for?
My work for AIDS.
Describe the period of time you spent in Puerto Vallarta
in the early sixties.
Pure. Love. Experiencing things through new eyes, which I
had learned from almost dying from pneumonia. Things took
on a different color. I saw the real color of things; the
depth of things. It was like heaven. Wed go to beaches
and totally strip off because there was no one around. There
was one called Twin Beaches. Its all built up now and
smells like diesel. It became a tourist attraction. Theyve
ruined it, ruined it, ruined it. There were only 5,000 people
when we were in Puerto Vallarta. I want to remember it when
it was fishing village.
Elizabeth shares a story about President Reagan:
I got him to finally address AIDS. He got up on stage to
talk, and ACT UP started booing and hissing so you couldnt
hear a word. The President looked so bewildered. I jumped
up on stage and said: I dont care what your politics
are, I dont care how you feel about the President or
what hes not doing, he is still the President of the
United States of America and you owe him some due respect
so shut the fuck up! And they did.
OUTTAKE QUOTES
I hate big parties. I always have, except for the fun of
having a new dress made and wearing my jewelry.
Ive studied Judaism and Buddhism.
Even if you dont believe in God, there still must be
some higher power. You just need to look out the window to
affirm that
People tell me that I look fifty, and its not due to
facelifts because you can see when I was shaved bald that
I didnt have a mess of scars
Elizabeth comments on people who have touched her life
Montgomery Clift
My inspiration. We loved each other with all our hearts.
Not sexually but maybe romantically.
Roddy McDowell
My best friend. A devastating loss. Everybody in this city
loved him so. He was honest, true, intelligent, and funny.
We shared so much, and I think he considered me his dearest
friend, which was an honor.
James Dean
Jimmy had been hurt very early on in his life. He was full
of pain. When we were on location sometimes hed talk
to me about it. We were very close. Wed talk about things
in the middle of the night.
Richard Burton
Our relationship was so convoluted, and passionate. Everything
we did was so filled with passion, whether it was lovemaking,
or fighting, or exploring.
Michael Jackson
I think Im one of the few friends Michael has and I
would do anything for him. I understand him. I know the depth
of pain he goes through. We were both child stars, which is
a common bond. Hes a genius. There is no one in show
business to equal him. There is no one to equal his friendship
and his love.
Shirley MacLaine
I love Shirley! I dont quite understand her but, hey
listen, if thats what she believes, kudos for her.
Rock Hudson
God, we had fun together. When we were in Texas on location,
wed go out in a hailstorm getting conked on the head
with hail the size of golf balls. We wanted to get a bucket
full so we could make Bloody Marys. And one time we even invented
a chocolate martini.
Debbie Reynolds
Debbie and I have become friends and Im so glad. Everybody
thought I broke up the marriage but [at that time] Debbie
and Eddie did not communicate. I was not in love with Eddie,
ever! The only thing we had in common was Mike.That whole
situation was one of the things I regretted the most in my
life.
In one word, describe Elizabeth Taylor.
Survivor.
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